Yesterday I had a total breakdown and fit about my weight. When it comes to getting dressed that’s when it hits me how uncomfortable I am in my body. Tim doesn’t understand. He thinks I should just be able to put something on I have clothes why not? Well he doesn’t realize that I weigh 20lbs more than I did when we first started dating…that has really impacted me. I know it’s my fault, I know I have the power to change it. But I just don’t like myself right now. Especially when ill eat really healthy for a few weeks and not lose anything so I binge for a few days and hate myself even more. In march I weighed 146 and was running everyday and eating good and after a month of that I gained 8lbs!!! Wtf!? So I’m just frustrated and angry.
how do you keep yourself from missing your husband when you are unable to talk to him for long periods of time? i don't mean solely being deployed either, sometimes just even being in the field and stuff seems to take a toll. i have my own life outside of my relationship but sometimes i just feel like i'm alone especially when my friends talk about their relationships and all the things they get to do together:/
When he is gone and I feel lonely and pretty much hate the world I just let myself feel that eat honestly. I don’t try and fake being happy. BUT I limit the time, like its ok for the first few days but then I’m like ok I had my time of being pathetic, wearing pjs all day and doing nothing but watching tv its time to go outside ha. Make sure you allow yourself to feel what you’re feeling but know when enough is enough. Then I take the dogs out, walk around stores, workout, take pictures, just pass the time.